im feelin wokieeee? i duknoe hw to slp..
i think cos my headache is killing me.
i feel a bit sad..a bit depressed..
mayb exam coming. so i lyke..
morning. means ltr.
im gg out wit yunos, mizi, farhan, shan.
etc etccc..to orchard.
i dont wanted to go.
but i think i nid to release stress.
suddenly i gt dat strange feeling.
cant exactly tell wats dat feeling.
i noe i dont feel gd.
i feel rather sad..my heart wanted to cried out for help.
but my brain told me nt to.
nt bcos i t realtionship probs.
me & hilmee gg on well.
veri gd. =)) i noe he gt probsss.
i noe he nid time to overcome it.
i juz scared he think likewise.
lykeee..he think i dont trust him.
which i reali do. 100% trust on u.
im juz weri bout u syg. im sowie if i react lyke ctrling u.
but im nt trying to ctrl u.
it was juz care & concern.
i wan to tok to u. but den u were aslp?
i duknoe where r u.
where hab u been.
i was damn worried.
& so i stay at ur hse downstair for 1 hr over.
i still didnt receive ur msg.
so i went to admiralty to mit up fadd.
we hab a gd chat a while.
tking bout werk. human relation.
nice to tok to person. thanks fadd.
we walk n walk. suddenly reach fadd hse.
& so he go bak 1st.
i was dere alonee.
& i sit dere thinking bout u.
wat u doing? fall aslp?
u wokiee anot?
aft dat i call feve. mit up wit dem.
yunos, mizi, farhan, shan, masrin, sharil & feve.
plus me of cos.
we were lyke wondering ghost.
sitting dere uhss. hahaha!~
starting was lyke thinkin where to lepak.
at mac. smoking area dere.
we tok frm 1 all e wae till 3 plus.
den go bak hm..i was walkinggg.
i noe i wont slp till morning.
i hbn receive ur msg. im still waiting.
so i came across blog.
den i blog it all here.
all my feelings. i dump here.
nt dat i wan tell to all dat im suffering.
is juz me. my feeling. i wanna let out.
my friend sae no worries hilmee is slping.
so u go slp wait for his msg.
at mac i act so strong. i nvr even sae anithingy out.
my heart crying. wanting to noe where r u.
i duknoe wat happen to me.
mayb i think too much.
indeed i am. im sowiee sygg..
nw listening to song.
staring at my empy room.
no longer i hab the warmth here.gt 1 person which i love so much.
dats my sis.
i miss her. realli do.
when i hab probs i go to her.
nw my rm wout her.
hw's she overseas? everything great?
sis!~ i reali do miss u.
syg, u once told me.
b4 u're wit me. gerls owaes ctrl u.
phobia of it? i guess so.
& so i try nt to ctrl u.
i owaes msg ur mom or bro to ask wru.
aslp oredi? if u dont reali lyke it do tell me ehk.
cos i juz wanna noe.
rite nw i cn sae i scared to lose u.
nt even for once i wanna lose u.
some ppl sae i tupid. normally army guy.
dey scared their gerl leave dem.
but im e other wae round.
wat oni riteee. muahahaha!~
however, i scared of it.
i juz wanna sae. i reali reali do LOVE u.
i duknoe wat future holds.
but i wanna sae if cn i wan to stay wit u.
nt oni for nw. owaes. forever.
in my nxt life. whenever i am.
juz hope u dont get me wrong.
watever i hab done wrong, i didnt mean to.
loveeee u HILMEEE..owaes.. =DD
